Our fire is our anger, the guardian at our gates.It is the element in our body that remembers what it feels like to be hurt and stands strong in our defence.It is our red flag, our warning sign, the warrior that does not bow down in the face of attack.Our fire is our warmth, our generosity, the hugs we give and receive.It is the heat of our skin, the warmth of a loving touch, nourishing soup for our soul.Our fire is transformative.It governs the digestion of food and life, emotion, and experience.It takes what we put in and creates our energy, our outlook, our actions.Our fire is our candlelight in the dark. When all else is gone.It is the spark that keeps us going, the passion that drives us to be more than we believed we could.It is the twinkle in our eyes, and the light of our soul that no one can deny.It is the sunshine in our being, our power, the confidence to be who we really are.Today, be your fire.Burn bright.Reignite, rekindle, from your own spark, inspire and light up another.Stand proud in your power and your passion.Go light up the world.I would love to hear how you bought your light and fire to the world today.With Love,Helen xxx
In the last few weeks this question has been popping up in many ways for many friends and clients to be examined, and I believe, removed from our collective consciousness.So why is there this underlying belief that feminine energy is weak?It is actually quite simple. We have been completely misled. It comes from the patriarchal system which wants control, specifically over the creativity and power of the feminine.Now be completely clear, both men and women have feminine energy.When you are soul having a human experience in a female body that current of feminine energy is easier to tap into and, more importantly, aspects of it are actively encouraged and reinforced through expression in most modern-day societies, such as empathy and compassion.And the opposite holds true of souls having their human experience in a male body; the feminine energy in men is repressed heavily in many cultures and certain masculine energy aspects emphasised, like physical strength, logic and judgement.But why would the patriarchy want to suppress feminine energy in both men and women?We suppress and control things we are afraid of, that we don’t understand, that we fear may control us. Sadly, throughout history masculine energy has been misused, to control feminine energy, because of the power of feminine energy when fully integrated and whole, not because it is weak.I want you to breathe in and take a moment to remember who mother nature really is.She is not only the source and support of every life on this planet, nourishing everything that swims, crawls, walks or fly's, every day, in every way they need…SHE IS FEROCIOUS AND POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE.She has a fire raging at her core so fearsome rocks become molten. Think of the devastation of her tsunamis, the heat and magnitude of her volcanic eruptions, the way her earthquakes can turn our cities on their heads in a matter of seconds.AND SHE CAN ENDURE AND SUSTAIN EVERYTHING SHE DOES INDEFINITELY.Make no mistake, feminine energy is powerful as fuck.And more over, it is magical and far, far beyond intellectual understanding.Female bodies have the ability to grow life. They carry a cosmic portal that allows souls to enter the world.There is nothing more sacred and powerful than that.From a yogic perspective, the reason many of the practices were developed, and originally only practiced by men, was because the ancient texts teach that male bodies have one source of Agni or fire within, associated with the transformation of digestion.Female bodies have two, the fire of digestion and the fire in the womb that allows female bodies to create life. So, physical yoga practices were originally a practice to support men to reach the same energetic power of transformation women already naturally hold.It does not surprise me that as women have adopted yogic practices and made them their own through understanding how they work in a female body, the divine feminine has begun to rise in the collective around our planet.It is that aspect of the feminine, the creator, that the patriarchy has repressed.Think of our major religions, in which God is male. Think of all the witch trials, women not having the vote, think of how we value artists, poets, musicians, think about how the role of parents and care giving has been made to seem less important than those roles played out in the boardrooms.AND WHAT BETTER WAY TO DO THIS THAN TO LABEL THE FEMININE SUPERPOWER, THAT OF UNDERSTANDING AND USING EMOTION AND INTUITION, AS WEAK.And because so many of us have been asleep, both men and women, we haven’t realised how this shaming of emotional expression, of female physical form and divine sexuality has kept us all from the truth.In a tantric sense, the masculine plays the dual roles of supporting and filling. The feminine is the receiver and creator.It takes strength to support and project your magic into the world as men do. And it takes strength to hold space, to be able to hold a void in patience while something new is conceived and grown.And there is nothing new created in the world if both energies do not play their roles. Only destruction.It is both the responsibility of both men and women to move out of this perspective, to which we have been led. The one in which the type of body you are in defines your power, and feminine energy is negated as weak.I invite you today, however you identify, to embrace the experience of your emotions, to express them fully, to follow your intuition.Receive, reflect, ground, empathise, show your compassion, magnetise what you desire, be vulnerable, authentic, trust and be open because these are all your possibilities, all your superpowers, when you are using your divine feminine power.Let us challenge a system that wants us to believe only the mind has power. Of course, a patriarchal system wants us to believe that…. because minds can be controlled.It is time we were all free.And while you choose to stay in the trap, you are not living in your full power. You are not fully embracing the huge magnitude of experience available to you when you reject your feminine energy as weak.You are missing out on the beauty that arrives in the awareness that, it is only when, each man is whole within himself, comfortable with both his current of masculine and feminine energy and each woman is whole within herself in the same way, we can truly come together, and be the divine creators we are at our core, through our unified loving human experience.And you realise that WE are all powerful in a way we have not yet fully conceived as a collective.Let me know what you feel, if this resonates or triggers anything within you.With love,Helen xxx
Change can be messy and ugly…
I have been watching the eucalyptus tree here, at the centre of Dragonfly House in Spain, shed her bark. Big layers of old skin, weathered and worn, peeling off to the ground. She has been doing this for months.
It has been a daily reminder for me that while we are going through a transformation it isn’t always pretty. Our deepest scars are exposed. Those outside us who don’t understand what we are doing think there is something wrong. It takes time, it takes commitment. She takes her strength from the wind, rain and sun. She stands alone, finding strength.
And yet the beauty she always hid emerges, a beautiful, vulnerable self. More pure than she has ever been, showing the world exactly what she was hiding all along. And everyone that sees her comments how beautiful she now is. This cycle of transformation is nearly done, the old ways of being cast aside to the wind. But there are scars that remain. The battle is not yet entirely won, but in her defiance she shines. She is now unafraid to be who she really is. And the scars that remain she will face in time.
Keep going my brave warrioresses, every layer you shed, is one you no longer needed to carry.
Just take your time and know your inner beauty cannot be denied.
You can do this beautiful souls.
You have to be standing in the dark to see the stars
Cheesy as this phrase is, I love it! It was the first spiritual words anyone ever said to me that I recall. At the time I was 29 and making the decision to leave a 10-year relationship that on the outside looked perfect. On the inside I felt dead. Like I was living in a play of what life should be none of it resonating with any fibre of who I really was. I felt alone and worse knew if I stayed, I would be trapped for the rest of my life unable to break out of the perfect couple myth I was feeding myself and the world.
And so, I made it real, I stepped into the dark. I left, with nowhere to go. Friends and family called me stupid for doing so.
I would love to say that by being brave and leaving life got better quickly…but the truth is I searched around in the dark for many years.
Things got far worse before they got better.
I tried to find myself in fancy jobs with travel but only found sugar Daddy’s that made me feel more worthless and alone. It wasn’t until I got really comfortable in the dark, with my own darkness, with my addictions to sugar, alcohol, sex and nicotine, when I thought the darkness had taken all of me, when I really believed there was no point going on because I was just a bad person through and through, that I had sold my sold to the devil through every wrong thing I had done, that was when a tiny thought stood up and said “enough, I see you for what you are but that is not all that you are”.
And a star appeared. My faith in me.
I was afraid at first, I had been in the dark so long. How could I dare believe I was enough. I found some external light in yoga. And more light from within when I accepted my real feelings of anger, shame, abandonment and rage. Once I fully realised who I really was, the bad and the good, the manipulator and the achiever, the abuser and the lover, the bitch and the unconditional friend, I understood how I had created the world around me just so I could really see who I truly was, and also see the depths I would go to fill the gaping hole inside of my heart instead of simply loving all of who I was.
I had walked deeper and deeper into my pitch-black night, to find my own edge. A place where it was either game over or go in. I began to look for more stars, things I could chart my new existence with, and I began to build my life as I wanted it this time. Yoga, honest friendships with people willing to challenge me, meditation, whole foods, people that I belly laugh with, who understand how good a hug can feel, with nature, with my fur kids, with no right or wrong, in flow and in the sunshine.
The reason I tell you this is because I stood in my darkness knowingly for more than a decade. I know how afraid of who you are a person can be. Especially when you are an aware person, we can judge ourselves even more harshly. So, if you feel like you are standing in the dark right now, if you feel alone and lost, hang in there and if you can be brave, go deeper. Get to know your own darkness, understand who it makes you and how it makes you powerful. Befriend your demons so when they raise their heads you recognise them and know how to stand them down.
And why would you go there? Because our human truth is that it is only when we can accept our darkness, as well as our light, completely, can we find that stars that will bring us home.
If you want to share your truth, your darkness, your stars I am listening.
Are you enjoying the ride?
Life can feel a bit like a roller coaster at times. It doesn’t matter how prepared you are, how focused you are on being happy, whether you are living your dream, how often you meditate, how pumped your motivation is…the ups and downs come to us all.
Recently I rode through a big dip myself. Ten years ago, I would have had my hands over my eyes and been asking myself “why is this happening to me?’
This time it was different.
- Because I know it never lasts, it is simply an experience. The only thing constant on life’s roller coaster is change and I am totally cool with that, in fact I freaking love it!
- I understand the sooner I fully accept what is happening, why I have created the situation, what my soul wants me to learn from it and take the action I need to the energy shifts. No longer am I hanging on for dear life but am enjoying the ride again.
- I am content to go into a dip. I know sometimes you have got to go right down to get to experience the next high. I observe and explore the lows; I watch myself, my patterns, my habits, and I track how crap they can quickly make me feel. I look for what I haven’t seen in myself before and when I see it, I figure out what new level of responsibility I get to take. And I take it. I know the challenge to see myself more clearly will propel me into a new awesome direction.
- I know where my mind can lead me when I get afraid and anxious, feel like I am out of control and unsure where I am headed… I spot the red flag thoughts and keep myself within the guardrails and hands within the car at all times!
- I am surrendered into the amazing journey my soul and God have in store for me and I totally trust the track they have laid out for me as the one that will bring me the greatest growth. My job is to keep leaning in, to keep going deeper and uncovering more, taking in the new views and perspectives as they are shown to me and be grateful for every twist and turn.
- I get excited when the ride gets interesting, fast and crazy… yes it means using my tools to stay balanced, and it tests me to be effective – when you have got less time what do you prioritize? For me, always basic selfcare, food, sleep, yoga, meditation and when things get tough, 10 minutes is an awesome achievement and pizza for dinner counts as a win today because I still prioritized what I need under pressure. And tomorrow, I get the chance to do even better.
- I am not hard on myself if I get thrown around a little. It means I have reached a new level, I am learning something new, as the stakes get higher, so do the gains. I know I am levelling up. I don’t want to be perfect I want to be alive, enjoying the ride – hands up and smiling at the camera as I pass.
- I know this ride will end one day; I am grateful I bought a ticket.
Let me know how your ride is right now…I would love to hear how you navigate the highs and lows!